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lichted

I say self-depreciating things about myself, but I always thought it was understood, “I’m better than this.” They were never limits, if anything that were safety beacons, a means of making the pathetic into something powerful. If anything, I had tremendous self-esteem and an underlying beleif that I could do anything. I felt un-detered by people’s insults although yeah they stung on some level. Anyway, now I’m on the flip side trying to get back to that. It’s not hard, but still it’s annoying to fall back when it seems you’ve come so far. Social anxiety was a big thing for me, but aside from that I wasn’t sensitive or anything, I was secure and for some reason beleived I was capable of a lot more than, and this is what hurt, what other people thought I was capable of. Jealousy and spite, they will make you strong. It’s better to feel a slight dis-satifaction with yourself and be constantly trying to self-improve than to accept limits that probably aren’t true and will leave you witless and stupid in the end. Enough bitching. Got pissed off at Pat Green today and his numerous ulterior motives bullshit. I don’t get how he came to beleive Toothpick Richman was playing in Atlanta when OBVIOUSLY they wouldn’t be interested in booking us w/o Davey Williams. Nisa cancelled that show the second Davey broke his hand. Alan Licht got back to me, and we’re bringing him down now. Living with Jecie is going well, 3 days of Bronchitisis got us in a good groove that’s pine-less and fun. Can’t wait till I have a cable modem.

Gotta go,
Andrew

January 30, 2003 at 6:11 pm Leave a comment

lichted

I say self-depreciating things about myself, but I always thought it was understood, “I’m better than this.” They were never limits, if anything that were safety beacons, a means of making the pathetic into something powerful. If anything, I had tremendous self-esteem and an underlying beleif that I could do anything. I felt un-detered by people’s insults although yeah they stung on some level. Anyway, now I’m on the flip side trying to get back to that. It’s not hard, but still it’s annoying to fall back when it seems you’ve come so far. Social anxiety was a big thing for me, but aside from that I wasn’t sensitive or anything, I was secure and for some reason beleived I was capable of a lot more than, and this is what hurt, what other people thought I was capable of. Jealousy and spite, they will make you strong. It’s better to feel a slight dis-satifaction with yourself and be constantly trying to self-improve than to accept limits that probably aren’t true and will leave you witless and stupid in the end. Enough bitching. Got pissed off at Pat Green today and his numerous ulterior motives bullshit. I don’t get how he came to beleive Toothpick Richman was playing in Atlanta when OBVIOUSLY they wouldn’t be interested in booking us w/o Davey Williams. Nisa cancelled that show the second Davey broke his hand. Alan Licht got back to me, and we’re bringing him down now. Living with Jecie is going well, 3 days of Bronchitisis got us in a good groove that’s pine-less and fun. Can’t wait till I have a cable modem.

Gotta go,
Andrew

January 30, 2003 at 6:11 pm Leave a comment

Jecie

Well I managed to smoke my throat into submission. Moving in w/ Jecie day 3 and I’m sick. Anyway, Miguel left his contacts sheets in my car in Miami so I now have Alan Licht’s number. Pat and I are calling him to see if he wants to come down and play. My stomach just hit empty so I’m nauseous. This happened while I typed. Jecie is fun to live with, she sings all night and is on a lot of medication. I hadn’t really seen her as a prescription drug freak, but there’s a good amount of Xani in her everyday. She always dates stoners I geuss I hadn’t put the two together. It’s a pretty functional relationship except when I give her this I’m gonna rip your clothes off and have sex with you right now type of look, she’s a pretty girl and says some funny shit. Her boyfriend is nice with his “B Humble,” license plate and his bohemian bar owner life style. I’d love to have his money, his girlfriend, and other things, but I could do w/o the licenese plate and uselessness of having stumbled into the profitable business of running a college bar before I’m even thirty. He seems to lack any real intellectual or humanitarian interests that might make his extradoniary free-time somehow matter in the long run. Like for instance buying tickets to Cuba right now that are for some date several years in advance, that way when Castro knocks off and plane fairs skyrocket as entrepenuers rush to open the first casino and import cigars, your plane tickets will suddenly be worth thousands more than before, or maybe just writing a screenplay or something. He might be writing a screenplay actually, he seems to have this notebook with him at all times. What was I thinking? My head’s all foggy from throat/ congestion. My biggest concern with Jecie is to not develop a crush on her. Crushes A. suck and B. get you nowhere, except when their on a famous nymphomaniac then you might get something out of it. Well there’s a pleasure to the crush which I have, I mean as I’ve said before there’s several girls I’m interested in, I guess I have small crushes on them, an admiration of their movement and conversation, a desire to go home with them, yet all of them are in some way taken. It’s just a waiting game =)
Jesus, I can’t keep track of what I’m writing anymore. My head’s spinning. Time for soup.


Andrew

January 28, 2003 at 10:28 am Leave a comment

Jecie

Well I managed to smoke my throat into submission. Moving in w/ Jecie day 3 and I’m sick. Anyway, Miguel left his contacts sheets in my car in Miami so I now have Alan Licht’s number. Pat and I are calling him to see if he wants to come down and play. My stomach just hit empty so I’m nauseous. This happened while I typed. Jecie is fun to live with, she sings all night and is on a lot of medication. I hadn’t really seen her as a prescription drug freak, but there’s a good amount of Xani in her everyday. She always dates stoners I geuss I hadn’t put the two together. It’s a pretty functional relationship except when I give her this I’m gonna rip your clothes off and have sex with you right now type of look, she’s a pretty girl and says some funny shit. Her boyfriend is nice with his “B Humble,” license plate and his bohemian bar owner life style. I’d love to have his money, his girlfriend, and other things, but I could do w/o the licenese plate and uselessness of having stumbled into the profitable business of running a college bar before I’m even thirty. He seems to lack any real intellectual or humanitarian interests that might make his extradoniary free-time somehow matter in the long run. Like for instance buying tickets to Cuba right now that are for some date several years in advance, that way when Castro knocks off and plane fairs skyrocket as entrepenuers rush to open the first casino and import cigars, your plane tickets will suddenly be worth thousands more than before, or maybe just writing a screenplay or something. He might be writing a screenplay actually, he seems to have this notebook with him at all times. What was I thinking? My head’s all foggy from throat/ congestion. My biggest concern with Jecie is to not develop a crush on her. Crushes A. suck and B. get you nowhere, except when their on a famous nymphomaniac then you might get something out of it. Well there’s a pleasure to the crush which I have, I mean as I’ve said before there’s several girls I’m interested in, I guess I have small crushes on them, an admiration of their movement and conversation, a desire to go home with them, yet all of them are in some way taken. It’s just a waiting game =)
Jesus, I can’t keep track of what I’m writing anymore. My head’s spinning. Time for soup.


Andrew

January 28, 2003 at 10:28 am Leave a comment

ending out

I work to much. Saw Amanda. Went by Randy’s and got cds to fill distro orders. Went by B and L’s to get cds, but Brian’s still burning them. Stopped by Allen’s on way back. Talked to Faith, Terry, and Richard amongst others. So fucking tired. Article due monday. Show monday. Swap Meet tomorrow. Need to work on laptop. Nophi is gonna play at Infilitrate in Miami. E-mailed Elise.


A

January 26, 2003 at 3:46 am Leave a comment

ending out

I work to much. Saw Amanda. Went by Randy’s and got cds to fill distro orders. Went by B and L’s to get cds, but Brian’s still burning them. Stopped by Allen’s on way back. Talked to Faith, Terry, and Richard amongst others. So fucking tired. Article due monday. Show monday. Swap Meet tomorrow. Need to work on laptop. Nophi is gonna play at Infilitrate in Miami. E-mailed Elise.


A

January 26, 2003 at 3:46 am Leave a comment

two days

You generally don’t write in these things when you have to much going on or everything is going well.
Basicly spent the last two days touring with Kid606. After his Orlando show me and Fred met him for lunch and then drove him down to Miami. Played the contortions for him because he said he’d never heard the cortoins. In Miami we drove past club revolver three times becuase it’s in an un-marked building in the middle of this run down area. Pit Bulls guard the building. Neddle is a complete asshole. Very nice club once you get inside. Stephen Castro from Beta was there so talked to him for awhile. Rumolo of Phoencia was there too. He’s basicly fucked up all the time. Miguel is strangely in touch with his feminine side pronoucing things like “Oh, I bet he’s a sweetheart, etc,” yet somehow projecting a masculine air. Odd becuase on last day began to have one of those emotionally frail moments where I feel gay, but still like girls type of things. Aside from that no major problems and had a lot of fun. Josh who holds club revolver ever Friday grosses around 3-4k a night from it in an un-marked club that’s 4 stories tall. About 3-500 people showed up, they had Miguel aka kid606 off by 2:00 and turned the whole thing into an eighties night/ garage rock set. Tom Ward totally kicks the ass of those DJs down there. He should send a mix cd to Josh. Anyway odd experience. We got free drinks and food all night just for driving Miguel down, no attempt made to buisness conscious, the money flows so hard into this club they treat you like kings, once Josh found out I wrote for Xlr8r the bouncer fucking was calling me by name. Very odd experience. Gabe of m3rck didn’t show up. Around 5 Kid606 bought us breakfast/ dinner at IHOP and we drove him to the airport so he could make his show in at Tonic in New York. Apparently he only listens to demos given to him on the road. Stephen is booking Nophi at infilitrate this year, our split record with him is happening, and Miguel talked a lot of shit about Rumolo, and frankly I like Phoencia, but I gotta admit Rumolo didn’t impress me although he was flocked over by girls. Me and Miguel agreed this one asian girl was easily the most attractive woman there. Didn’t get to dance with anyone. Holly didn’t call about Tampa, maybe she will later. EJ just called. Just woke after getting home at 7 a.m. Miami was fun, I hope Xlr8r picks up my pitches on Revolver. Josh is very nice, I’m looking forward to infilitrate. Sold Yip-Yip cds. Might sell more later this week. Moving in with Jessie tomorrow. So busy. Article due monday, swap meet sunday.


A

January 25, 2003 at 6:42 pm Leave a comment

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